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I wish I can go back in time and change all the wrong things I've done...
This is my confession. I admit that I've tried smoking on different occasions when I was in school. But I could count on how many I took then. I really became addicted when I was 18 years old. I remembered it started since I started college.
I couldn't remember exactly why I started to smoke cigarettes. Was it because I wanted to be on par with my friends? Was it because of curiosity? Was it because I just wanted to look cool? Was is because I want to be rebellious? It may be one of 'em and It also can be for all of the reasons combine. Maybe its for all the reasons.
Anyway I look at it, I find it silly now, how naive I was, how stupid I was on starting. Because like everything else, my perceptions and views of matters around me has changed.
It's not cool anymore. It's not even fun anymore.
So now I'm 24 years old. This year I have been trying to stop a couple of times. But during this Ramadhan, it seems easier. Plus with endless support from the love of my life, Ayu Hasida. The most amazing woman I've ever met in my life. You are my savior baby. I don't know what to do without you. And also with the support from my family and friends. Thanks guys.
To this day, it has been 4 days since I last smoke. It just makes me smile to have freed myself from that dreadful cigs.
I know that 4 days is too soon to say that I've quit. But it's a good start. In my mind, I draw a mental goal to achieve and with dialogues to motivate myself to get it thru the day. The goal is simple - "Don't smoke today" and with all the things to keep me motivated... "Never take another puff" no matter how bad the day is. "Never take a puff" no matter how bad the urges are asking for it. "Never take a puff" because all I'll do is killing myself."Never take a puff" after a meal. "Never take a puff" because my love ones are the most precious to me. "Never take a puff" because I want to and I always get what I want. Never take another puff.
I tell my fiancee about my progress everyday and my family for support. Told my friends about it hoping that my ego will boost me more in quitting smoke. Last night while hanging around with them at the mamak stall, they were all smoking yet I didn't even want to. I was tempted yes, but my determination is far more greater.
So today is the 5th day of my smoking cessation. Of me quitting smoke. I still have these urges of smoking every time after I eat but it will only last for 5 minutes. I know there's a lot of work involve. Changing my habits. Changing my mindset. Changing everything I do and think that triggers me smoking. But I'm truly determine to end this. To end my smoking addiction for good...forever.
May God Almighty provide me strength.
A lot of big things has happen to me lately. Good things. Great things. Memorable things. The most of all is my engagement. I know, I should have had written about it but time was not in my favor. I am so bless to have finally found the one. The one that I can share all my dreams and goals. The one that can understand me. The one that I want to live the rest of my life with. The one I devote my life to. My whole world revolves around her. The woman of my dreams. The love of my life. My everything.
Friends, when you have found that someone, you just know that she is the right one. You can feel it in your heart, flowing through your veins. And no matter what happens, you want to be with her all the time - always. It overwhelms you but yet you can't resist it. Because no matter what you do, you find your way to her.
I am happy, truly happy. All in all, I hope you guys find the right one. Live happy. Move on and be happy.
Oh and on another note, it's been quite some time since my last entry. So I guess It will be a couple of months till the next one.
No, not the TV series but my age. Though I don't feel like it. Maybe it takes time to sink it in.
To my sweet baby, I love you more than anyone & you mean everything to me. I hope that all our plans come true. You make me so happy sayang.
To all my friends, thanks for the birthday wishes.
Have a very good day people.
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Resolutions? I think this time i'll keep in my heart instead of bursting it out thru my mouth.
RM350 to replace my windshield. There goes my duit beli baju raya. Macam mana la batu tu bole kena keta aku.
Bila cermin kereta aku pecah, sticker road tax tak boleh nak tanggalkan. Bila aku cuba buka sticker tu memang akan hancur. So I had to make a police report to make a new copy of the road tax. Bila dah buat report polis kena dtg esoknye utk pengesahan. Rupa-rupanya pengesahan laporan polis hanya dari pukul 8 pagi - 3 petang. Masa aku buat report tu dah pukul 6 petang.
Keesokan harinya aku pergi balai, ambil pengesahan and terus pergi JPJ kat Padang Jawa tu. Nasib baik tak banyak orang. Cuma sebelum aku tunjuk report polis tu pegawai kat kaunter tu tanya macam2 pulak. Aku malas nak jawab terus bagi report polis tu. Lepas tu org JPJ tu tak banyak tanya dah. Terus buat and bagi aku copy sticker road tax baru.
(gambar tiada kena mengena dgn cerita di atas). Berbuka makan sate mesti best!
The Bush administration doctrine of pre-emptive strike was done because of fear of 9/11. Before they strike us, we better strike them first. Isolate a few, establish potential threat and strike. These so called terrorist are operating cell by cell but a whole nation is attacked. This doctrine which is heavyly endorsed by develop nation has not won many favours among the global community.
Doubts, divisions and defections have developed among American allies. For what has started as sympathy for the United States has turned into suspicion and, for some, even hatred. The prisons at Guantanamo Bay and Abu Gharib, the treatment of prisoners, secret prisons and rendition flights all added to this feeling. It is not a simple matter. Acknowledging and emptying the secrets camps and other coveted moves may answer a few criticism against the US but not all and their overall effect remains to be seen.
The war against Afghan, Iraq, the Palestine-Israel conflict, the growing tension against Iran – How can this American nation portray themselves as victim in the war of terror along with their allies, the UK and the Israel. How can they? When everyday we see more lives are shattered by their doings. People in Lebanon, Palestine, Iraq, Afghan, and Syria. Civilians just like you and I being robbed in daylight of their home, their family, their world.
This is not about the clash of civilization. This is about people’s life. Ordinary people like you and me. I hope for a better tomorrow. Where we can live peacefully and walk anywhere without fear. Without worrying that our own blood will not spill on our own soil. I know this is too optimistic but allow me to at least hope for a bright future any day anytime anywhere.
